August is always like January for teachers. It is a fresh start. I like to set new goals, organize my new planner, and really gear up for the best school year ever! I am always ready and excited and for a few reasons:
- This is my calling.
- I have done it awhile.
- I know my WHY and see the benefits.
- I am successful.
- I enjoy everything about it.
So, this year I did what anyone who has taught 17 years would do, completely change it up!! I jumped head first into the “secondary world” and I will be teaching 7th-grade PreAP English and coaching 7th-grade cheer!
My first new learning began last week as I spent four days with my cheerleaders at cheer camp. Not only was this the most AMAZING thing ever because it allowed me to start building great relationships (the most important thing to me), but it helped ME ease into feeling comfortable with this age. This first-grade teacher was a little nervous, but you know what……it was awesome! 12 & 13-year-olds are really just bigger 6-year-olds! They all want to be loved and accepted! It warmed my heart to spend time with these young ladies seeing all the great things that lie ahead for us. But I have to say, it was the scariest thing I have done in awhile. Baptism by fire they say, right? I did not know the lingo, vocab, expectations, routines, and the why behind any of this as I headed out Friday. By Monday afternoon, with a HUGE thanks to Pav, Chapa and these girls, I felt confident in this new fun and was even sad to say goodbye for a few weeks! They coached me, were patient with me, guided me, loved on me, and trusted me. They had patience with me as I was learning and were incredible!!! THAT is why I did not shut down and developed the confidence in myself, something our kids need to experience. (I will share my motto once again….if you just love them and show you care, anything is possible!)
The second new learning came at the two-day Springboard training this week. I have taught reading and ELA for 17 years to grades K-6. I have a master’s degree as a reading specialist. I have done this and taught so many children how to grow as a reader, but y’all….teaching PreAP English is NOTHING like this. I felt like a first-year teacher sitting through this training and learning the art of my content area. This post isn’t to talk about the new “challenge” and learning that I will be taking on this year. I cannot describe my excitement about this. I feel like every time I talk to someone about it I am smiling ear to ear.
I want to address the feeling I had the past two weeks while learning new things in a new environment. I was overwhelmed. I teared up at times. I had to walk away because I was afraid I couldn’t hold it together in front of everyone. I was scared. I was asked a question that I did not know the answer to. I had to say out loud, “I have no idea.” While I am someone who asks a million questions and rarely gets embarrassed about this, it still was a little embarrassing. I was shy. Y’all, this is not me! (Well, the me in her comfort zone!)
All that ran through my mind was – oh my goodness, these kids! THIS is what new and scary feels like. While so extremely exciting on one hand, it is so foreign to someone who has been in her comfort zone and is reaching outside of it.
Don’t we have kids that come to us new to the environment? New to the state? Country? Maybe they have so many things going on in their minds from home that they are unable to focus on the writing lesson we ask of them. They may not have someone who tells them WHY they are learning things, so they do not connect or see the meaning. While in the deepest parts of our sweet hearts we think we are conscious of this, we sometimes get caught up in only thinking of what we need to teach these academically in order for them to be successful. While it is true we do, it is also true that the greatest lessons we can teach them are life lessons. How to be patient. How to be kind. How to love one another. How to trust and be trusted. How to be responsible. How to be a good person. They are looking to us to model this for them. How else will they learn how to help someone who is learning something new or cheer someone on when they are learning something new?
I am grateful I learned these lessons from my parents, my teachers, my coaches, my friends, and that I can continue learning these lessons from my colleagues and students.
As we start this new school year, my new fresh start and focus will be to really observe what cannot be seen. Having felt this feeling so strongly the past week has given me heightened empathy. I am so grateful for this chosen new journey and hope my students learn from me how to show empathy and compassion. The 2017-2018 school year is going to be a GREAT ONE!!