Maybe it is just me, but I seem to be constantly working on balance in my life. If you know me, you might have just laughed out loud. Really though, the struggle is real y’all. I feel constantly torn between loving what I am doing and stressing because I know I need to not be doing it.
Funny story, I went to coffee with my dear teacher friend after yoga the other day and I said, “Here are my steps I am taking in July to take a step back and you know, spend some days where I am not doing something all the time. I am constantly going. I want to really try to not constantly do stuff.” She looked at me and said, “Do you mean relax?” We couldn’t stop laughing! So sad, but it’s the truth.
Here is the problem with passionate educators: We find JOY in reading and learning about education. It just runs together. It IS RELAXING for me to learn, create things, and read things on Twitter and blogs.
So, in my attempt to be intentional about getting better I decided to sit down and read more about how people do this. I was headed to the internet app when my ADD finger hit the Twitter icon and no kidding the first tweet that pops up is from someone in my PLN discussing how they need to balance their life better. (I mean, maybe that was meant to be!) I click the comments and it is a strand of 7 people, all people I think highly of and are incredible educators that I feel have it all balanced, talking about how hard this is for them and how they are constantly working on it. I hate to admit it, but I felt relief. I am not the only one who struggles with this!!
Guilty pleasure alert: Aside from turning to my faith, I like to read quotes on Pinterest to calm my mind. 🙂 I ran across this one and it stuck with me as I was thinking about this situation.
At first I thought, I AM doing what makes my soul happy. I really love learning and using my creativity. I love reading about how to do more exciting things to empower kids.
Then, I began thinking about this more. I need to be really honest with myself and have no fear of being judged. I asked myself, “What things do I do outside of education that make my soul really happy?” Here is what came to mind.
I realized that music is a huge part of my life in so many ways. I know a good beat starts my morning off right! The perfect song can take a bad mood and shake it off! I knew this, but wasn’t aware that it is so influential in calming my soul. I need to make more time for this than I do already. I know when I consistently read God’s word and do not let anything get in the way of my devotional time, I am truly fulfilled. I know that I love hugs and time with the ones I love the most. All of these things are what makes my life pretty amazing!
It is a little scary, but I chose to be very open about this so that I am held accountable for making time to do more of the things I love with my family and things that make my soul happy. Number one being sitting down! Even if it is just to watch t.v. without multitasking. Reading more fiction novels instead of only professional reading. Not thinking about the list of things that need to get done. As a person who is an “active person” and cannot stop moving, just sitting is a HUGE thing for me. If I am not moving, my mind is going nonstop.
I know the first step is admitting it, right? Likewise, making changes will require small steps. I am taking baby steps. The first step is a BIG one for me. I am headed to the beach soon. Every summer we go with our same group of super fun friends and seriously have the MOST AMAZING time goofing around and doing nothing! While on the beach that week, I normally catch up reading my professional books. This year I am taking a fiction novel! (I’ll let you know how that goes!)
There ya have it. My new word for the next 6 months is BALANCE. I will be very intentional to make more time to do things that make my soul happy. I would love to hear from anyone who struggles with balance as well. We are better together, so all ideas are welcomed! 🙂
As always, my motto is…..