What a thought! This spoke so loudly to me this week. Going back into the classroom to teach 7th-grade Pre-AP English, Language Acquisition, and Literacy Achievement might be the hardest thing I have done in awhile! Behind every reason that I asked for and wanted this challenge, is every fear and emotion that do not always feel so good.
You see, I am a Learner. My top strength on the strengths finder assessment was Learner. It is in my nature to soak everything up and try anything new. I love finding different ways to meet the needs of my students and I am always looking for new things to learn. This is why when my heart felt led to middle school I said to myself, let’s do this!
One thing I was not expecting was how much the move from elementary to middle school would change my comfort level I had based on experience and knowledge. So, I will honor the space between no longer having the luxury of feeling ahead of the game and at ease with where I am headed because I have done it before. NOT YET! It is taking me time and extra effort to learn the content, learn how I want to share it and make it my own, and to large groups of 12 and 13-year olds who will receive it with excitement. 🙂
So, like the quote above states, “Between No Longer and Not Yet” because soon it will come. Soon I will feel that comfort, but the growth I sought from this change is my WHY!
I wanted to grow. I am growing like I never imagined. Each day I learn so many new things about how middle school systems function, all about the social and emotional needs of teenagers, and why I have absolutely fallen in love with this position! It is uncomfortable not understanding everything easily and knowing right off the bat. It is sometimes awkward trying to find my place of comfort in each day and squeeze in those important moments to build relationships with the 150 teens that whirl in and out of my classroom. But, I could not be happier doing this and alongside the most supportive administration and staff around!
My words to anyone who is thinking of completely changing up what they are doing but they are scared…..take the leap! Make the jump! I have never grown more than I have in just the last month. And I LOVE IT!